NINE DAYS AND COUNTING...

I'm nine days away from being a wife. A wife. 

I'm nine days from being forever connected to another individual...hopefully.

Nine days away from married life.

Am I ready? Sure.

Am I sure? Of course.

Am I freaking out? Not out in the open at least.

What if I'm not any good at being a wife? Even bigger question: what if I'm not a good MOTHER when the time comes? 

I'm not freaking out. I'm just stressing out about the after. Is that the same? I don't know how much will change with all of this official-ness...but I know something is going to change...at least that's what everyone says...

Celibacy. What's that about?

So me and the fiancee have been struggling with what exactly this celibacy situation is about and why we are doing it?...or not doing it, rather.

Both of us being fairly religious, we were always informed of the importance of being celibate...at least for a while leading up to the big day. They say, "out of respect".

But frankly, it's stressful...perhaps even PAINFUL!...and as we draw nearer and become increasingly frustrated, we are beginning to ask ourselves, "why are we doing this again?"

Any takers?

Oddly, Major Issues = No Writing

I know it's been an incredibly long time since my last entry...but there have been an incredible amount of issues in my life lately...

1. i've been really poor and therefore really stressed out and totally unmotivated to write...thank goodness that's over now (thank you federal government!) you never know how much being broke can affect your emotional well-being!
2. entirely too much graduate school work happening...thank goodness that's over also...until next month at least!
3. all of that plus usual wedding drama....

But I'm better now, so get ready for the blogg-age!